Mrs. F

So I just got back from a jet-ski ride at 4.30 am in Khobar. and guess what? I saw dolphins!! i will admit i freaked out when i saw the first one since there was no one out there other than me and my husband, it was dark-ish, and all these stories about dolphins attacking people and not being as sweet as they look came into my mind.. but eventually, i got over it and it was amazing..

i've been away for quite a while now.. and i kept making notes of stuff i would write about in my blog and just never got to it! so, i looked at my blog today and just decided to write.. cuz it doesn't really matter what i say in the end.. it's a blog, and it's mine!!! nyahahahaha

one of things i wanted to do is blog about my honeymoon.. a few days into my honeymoon i realised THAT was not gonna happen, so instead i decided to keep a note book so i would remember stuff i wanted to say.. you know what happened? well.. Mr. F and I had just arrived to Bombay.. we went out that afternoon for a walk in the market which was right next to our hotel since we had a day free of tour guides to spend as we wished.. while walking through the market i found an young man who was selling the cutest little notebooks and pens. so i supressed the urge to get the blue one and went for the purple one.. i was so excited and wrote all the events for the next week.. i then got a little distracted for a few days.. but when i met Lakshmi (the cutest elephant ever) i went back to my little book to write.. to my surprise, i opened it and found it was BLANK!! it was probably something about the kind of ink and paper, but everything i wrote just vanished!

moral of the story: dont judge a notebook by its cover!

anyhow, i guess i will just have to depend on my memory to write about all the lovely things we experienced in our journey around Asia..

aaaaaand That's all folks..

for now...

Laugh Out Loud

i like to think of myself as an open minded person.. i don't make a habit out of laughing at other people's cultures..


BUT...... this is just too funny




This one is for you B!

i have said enough..

there are times when there is just too much to say.. that you say nothing at all.. please excuse my absence.. i have too much to say..

there are times when i can't put down a book.. it tells a story of what i wish was the story of my life.. a book full of white pages with no words, and so much to say..

there are times when i feel the need to write.. i brush the dust off my pens and get a paper.. i sit there for hours, a million thoughts in my head.. i write nothing.. nothing at all.. i put my pen back and fold the paper beneath it.. i feel better.. i have said enough..

there are times when i think of u in silence.. i am sorry for what i have done wrong.. i am grateful for what u have done right! i tell u what u mean to me, in silence..

there are times when i am not sure u know.. i assure u.. i do know.. yet i say nothing..

nothing at all

Farm Ville sucks!!!

i used to log on to facebook, and find my home page filled with stories of people planting stuff on their farms in a game called farm ville! it never did interest me in the past.. after a while of people posting about animals on their farms, crops that need to be fertilized and mystery eggs, i decided to go see what all the fuss was about.. i joined farm ville!

it was all fun and dandy in the beginning.. but as i levelled up in the game and as my farm kept expanding, i tried to make it look good.. i became obsessed with my farm (just ask Buffy).. always trying to keep it neat, successful and pretty.. i keep changing the decorations, moving my animals around, colour coordinating the flowers i grow.. however, my farm STILL SUCKS!! it's ugly!!

i just can't get it to look good, i guess i'm just not creative.. Farm ville has really put my life into perspective.. it got me thinking.. i mean, i think i am at least moderately cultured, i do have good taste, i enjoy the arts.. but i still can't make a freakin' virtual farm look good!!!!


i applied that to everything else in my life.. i can sing about twenty thousand songs with the same tune! they all start off right, then get sucked in to my creative-less abyss which makes all things BORING, PLAIN AND THE SAME!!!


i can't even draw.. i'm serious! my father is an amazing artist, and so is my mother.. i have been brought up with so much art and beauty around me, yet yesterday i was drawing something for my 5 year old niece who thought that it was a house, apple, flower, fire truck and an alien before i had to tell her i was drawing an elephant!!!


i can just imagine my future house now, i will have a blue room with only blue furniture, maybe a splash of grey here or there.. a white room with only white furniture, and maybe two wooden objects in the middle and so on.. i will have a PLAIN and BORING house!!!


i'm upset.. because i think that i have had too much exposure to beauty in my life to be boring and uncreative!! can u practice being creative?! hmmmm....


p.s. have i no more readers?! come on people three blog posts in a row!!! show me a little love.. i'm in a very dark and uncreative place right now!

Mama quotes!

While watching a random beauty contest, a complete airhead is on stage giving a speech:

my sister: "who is she? Miss what?!"

mama: "Miss-ed the point!"

..................................

While in Harrods in London, a lady wearing a pair of jeans with crystals of all shapes, sizes and colours on them, a white shirt with frills and lots of accessories passes by:

me: "talk about a fashion victim"

mama: "she is not a fashion victim, fashion is HER victim!"

.................................

i heart my mother's dry sense of humor <3

2010, coming to us with a BANG!

I like the way this year has started.. for me personally, 2010 is looking up (mashallah) but i'll save the best for last.. firstly, i wouldn't want to forget that a tragedy did take place and the people of Haiti are still suffering.. yet, one of the upsides of globalization is that no one shall be left alone, the whole world has come together yet again to help the people in need. it does make one feel better to see humanitarianism in the headlines everywhere.. If you'd like to do your part, this is a good website for donations (easy to use and does the job)..

One of the things i found amusing was the modern day Robin Hood role the pirates in Somalia have decided to play.. apparently, they have decided to steal from the rich and give to the poor! haha.. ironic! check this out..


now, back to the upside of 2010.. The i-pad! even though it is an oversized i-pod (and also sounds like an ipod from the mouth of a New Yorker, or a Saudi trying to speak in an artificial American accent) and even though it would be uncomfortable to hold up for a long period of time, i am still DYING to get one! maybe even two!! it just makes me want to throw my Kindle in the bin!! but then again, a comment my sister made today did actually make me think. she said that "if apple made toilet paper and called it i-wipe, i'd still go out to buy it and half the population of the world would too" maybe it is just the media frenzy.. hmmm.. who knows?! all i know is that as i said before, I WANT ONE!


what else? OK FINE! I can't think of anything else right now (other than my good news) but it hasn't even been a month! so, whatever! i'll just get to my part..


2010 has been especially special for me because my mother is doing much better health-wise (thank the lord), I have a new nephew (whom i shall meet in a few days inshallah), we are getting 2 new kittens in a week (they are miniature persians that are about as big as a rabbit when they are fully grown), and last but not least, I am engaged!


so, i hope the good news just keeps coming!

how has ur 2010 been looking so far?!

just around the corner

As we approach the new year, i find myself feeling... lighter (not only because i went through very drastic means to loose weight) but even emotionally.. I am ready to leap into the New Year with a smile on my face and hope in my heart that this is it.. 2010 is gonna be MY year!!!


so, has anyone achieved any of their 2009 new year's resolutions.. I really have no idea what i vowed to achieve by 2010, so I can't really comment on my progress..

Nevertheless, as always, i will make a new list for 2010 which i might not stick to but it still gives me a sense of direction..i'm not getting into all that now.. instead.. i'm just gonna blab randomly.. "shocking"


I'm in New York at the moment (and have been since July) I'm missing London terribly, yet surprisingly, not as much as I'm missing Saudi.. can't wait to go back and see the rest of my family back home.. the below zero temperature here isn't helping either.. I need to get a pair of snow boots soon cuz when i'm out it feels like i'm ice-skating!! and i really don't want to break anything!!


One of the highlights of my stay here is this show called FuerzaBruta it's AMAZING.. I've seen it twice already and i'm planning on a third visit.. last time i went i got picked out from the audience to have a card board box-type-of-thing smashed on my head, it was filled with little pieces of paper and glitter.. basically they break the thing on ur head then u start dancing like crazy!! now that was fun!


One thing I have learnt to appreciate since i've been in the states is the mixture of apples and salad!! it's like it's an item on every menu in any restaurant (regardless of the cuisine) along with beetroot (which the Americans call beets) and tuna tartar.. what was i going on about?? oh yeah, apples and salad, it's yummy!!


before i leave u with this totally planned and well thought out post, I have one comment, and a question..

Comment: I hate how facebook changed their privacy settings it's really bugging me!!!!!!!!

Question: What the hell is google wave? I don't get what's so special about it!!!!


That'll be all for now, in the spirit of the great United States I would like to say:
Catch u Later Dudes!!!

buzzzz

The rattling keeps coming back every once in a while..

I hear it in my dreams.. Sometimes its a car starting,

at other times its some sort of bird..

It goes away for a while.. Then comes back..

It begins drilling in my head all over again..

I wish it would stop!

I wish it would stop!

I wish it would JUST STOP!!!!!

I wake up, panting, my heart is racing..

I find myself in my room..

in my bed..

Same surroundings..

Same buzzing sound..

I reach out for the source of the sound..

I pick up my vibrating phone..

i take a deep breath

And hope, that today it will be different,

Today.. there will be good news..

a friend in need...

When it comes to keeping in touch.. I'm not exactly what u would call a PRO!

I rarely pick up the phone when someone is calling unless its my parents or someone I'm meeting in a bit.. I don't do it on purpose, but I can always think of an excuse to make this a bad time to talk on the phone.. I would much rather txt, its seems more private to me..

The people closest to me know that its not personal at all.. They know its just the way I am.. So they always call again.. And I love them for it..

The thing is.. My family and I have been passing through a very difficult time as of recently.. I was so surprised by the amount of people who called, sent txt msgs, e-mailed, facebook messaged and even went as far as traveling to come be with me and my family in our time of need..

It has made me realise that regardless of how independent u are, and how much u think ur fine on ur own.. Its times like these that u need people around u.. It gives u strength.. A belief that things WILL get better..

I wish I could show my gratitude to everyone who has contacted me to make sure we were ok.. I did thank everyone, but I just feel like I should do more.. What exactly?! I'm not quite sure..

I do know, however, that I will do my best to be there for the people who need me and even the ones who don't know they do yet..

Moral of the story: next time u think ur visit, phone call, txt msg or any other form of contact won't make a difference.. Think again

TTYL everyone (I've decided to use these abbreviations that I'm sure lower ur IQ somehow cuz I'm trying to be cool)

as much as i can say,, for now

Sometimes it’s dark.. and no matter how hard she tries, she fails sometimes..

That doesn’t mean she won’t try again tomorrow morning..

Sometimes it’s cold.. and no matter how hard she tries, she fails sometimes..

And yet again, you can count on her trying tomorrow morning..

When she does succeed..

Smiles are drawn, joy is born,

It’s safe again..

What helps me get through the darkness and the cold, is that I believe in the sun..

I believe she will try and succeed..

In my world, you are the sun mama..

You will get through this..

You will shine again..

I know it..

And I love you more than words can say..

Let me be

Un-cuff my hands, if u please..
I create my own restraints..

Throw down that fence, if u may..
I decide my own boundaries..

I am human, am I not? I have choices, do I not?

Just let me be.. u will see.. I am able.. I am


Put down that brush, if u please..
I choose my own colours..

Put down ur voice, if u may..
I can still hear my own thoughts..

I have a brain, do I not?
I have my morals, do I not?

Just let me be.. u will see.. there’s not much u can u change in me..



I have spoken.. I have chosen.. let me out of this cage..

I shall be who I want to be..

I shall do what I want to do..

I shall say what I want to say..

One day....

evolution of thought

(don't get too excited, the title might suggest a more in depth post, but as always, this is just a bunch of BLAH BLAH BLAH)

you know how people go through phases in their lives?

well... i was thinking about this and i'm not sure if they really are phases.. or just variations of the same sort of thing?

maybe they're even a build up on those things!


am i making any sense?


here...

lets use an example.. say when i was a little girl i was into the colour pink (which is 100% untrue since i'm a blue type of girl) but let's just say i was.. then when i was a teenager i started liking fuschia.. and eventually, as i got older red bacame my favourit colour..

so basically, i have evolved over the years.. but in the end, those colours were just variations on the first colour i was into..


apply that to life.. do our interests, likes, dislikes, way of life, mentality etc etc actually change as we get older?

or are we just attracted to the same kind of thing in a different shade?!

uh uh uh uh oooooooooooh.. i'm lovin' it

it's almost midnight, the breeze is not as shy as it was for the past few days.. The Spanish music in the background is just right.. i have finally come around to reading 'an interview with the vampire' by Anne Rice and it's just taking me to another world.. with my laptop on my lap, i am just surrounded by so much and absolutely NOTHING on my mind..

i am loving this feeling

i have left the unpredictable weather of London behind, along with the stress of university and the on-going obligations that were just getting too much until i found a grey hair on my arm! yes.... my arm!!

Tenerife, I would like to thank you for this chance to escape, i would like to thank your imported sands, your raging sea, your beautiful flowers that keep falling on me from the trees above without giving me hey-fever.. i would like to thank your lovely people, your beautiful language and your sun that burnt my shoulders and nose..

thank you for this wonderful experience

i must get to bed now, tomorrow my sister, her beautiful son and daughter and i are going whale and dolphin watching.. i'm so excited..




p.s. check out the blogs i'm following three of them are unintentionally speaking to each other

Putting it in words: On the run

Work in Progress: Where are we going?

Trevelyana: I wish i knew

haha, thought that was ironic..


bbye for now

a passion for something lost

Once upon a time.....

There once lived a girl with a passion so strong.. a passion for something lost..

She cut her hair, and as it grew, she dyed it a bright bright blue..

She wrote a lot, she shared a little.. There was nothing she couldn't do..

Enthusiastic she was, this girl, you see, she was always the lead in the race..

On her way, sometimes she would stray and walk at a different pace..

She let the world pass by her side.. And preached to people to lengthen their stride..

"Wake up" she was told "join the crowd".. "I won't" she said.. She was much too proud..



Today.....


She has once again joined the race.. She picked up her life along with her pace..

She knows much more than she did in the past.. I'm wondering now how long will it last??

Ranting... or just a load of mumbo jumbo..

Don't look at me like I am your mirror.. this is not your reflection..

I tell you this with all the love in the world, but, you need to get a life!


Don't put those on, they are mine, those shoes are not your own.. please find a path you carve yourself..

your foot-prints are too small for mine..


Don't pressure me, I'm busy.. I am!! I have so much work to do..

I tell you this with all the love in the world, but, I just can't put a smile on for you today!


I try to smile, and laugh sometimes.. sometimes it's just too much..


I am not sad, nor am I bitter.. I just need to be free!!!


I just need sometime with me..

I'll be back if you let me be gone

for just a bit....



p.s. replied to your comments on my older post.. sorry for the delay :)

It snowed in London :)

Yeah so, i've been away for a while!

I'm glad to say i'm still alive.. a different life maybe.. but it still exists..

What have i been up to?!! (wishful thinking that anyone would care to actually ask that haha)

well.. i went back to school.. i am doing another degree in communications with a bunch of 18,19 and maximum 20 year olds! i feel like a granny at uni but it's cool..

my closest friends have moved back to their countries! i thought my life would suck, but hey, guess what? it doesn't.. life goes on!

i've been so busy these days, which is good.. i have long days at uni, my family are here, AND surprisingly i've become more social.. there is much to do..

what else?! well.. i miss blogging, but i think i'm a bit rusty.. i need to find something to write about!!! haha

u know what.. i have an idea.. who ever is reading this.. if there is anyone out there.. ask me questions.. as many as u want.. and i will answer them in my next post!! how about that?!!

they can be questions about me.. general stuff that u just don't feel like researching lol.. or whatever.. won't be mentioning names (unless allowed to) and ummm.. guess that's it :)



it's funny u know.. i just wrote all that and suddenly it hit me.. i really have no idea who i'm talking to!! hmmm.. listen,, even if u don't want to ask a question, just leave a comment and say hello.. just so i don't feel like i'm alone over here lol..

looking forward to c what u've got to say..

xx

EA meeting -Extremist Anonymous

“Hello.. I am a Saudi Liberal!!!

I believe in women's rights

I am all for equality

I demand freedom of speech

Please express yourselves….”

(A man with a beard gets up to talk)

“Please shut him up, he is an ignorant fool who probably supports terrorism!!”

“Hello.. I am a Saudi Conservative!!!

I believe women exist to become good wives and mothers

I am all for religious hierarchy

I demand you hear MY voice

Please do as you are told…”

(Nobody gets up to talk)

“I knew the majority of the people supported me!!”

Will we ever be able to push ourselves away from the extremes?!!

WOW it's been a while!!!

what's up people? yes, i know, i haven't been blogging!! most of u probably don't give a rat's behind!! but I am still going to say, i'm sorry!! been busy u know..

with what?! well.. most importantly my sister has given birth prematurely to the most precious little girl <3 she's in hospital till about mid December (so it's been hectic). Thankfully, she is stronger than she was when she was born.. she's beautiful.. and we love her!


what else? well,, the exhibition I have been working on for the past year and a half has finally come to life.. if ur in London, plz visit The Edge of Arabia exhibition at the Brunei Gallery in Russel square. If not, then plz visit our website www.edgeofarabia.com where u can see the exhibition and also, WE HAVE A BLOG!!!! plz check it out.. the online shop is pretty cool too *hint hint*


CONGRATS ON OBAMA WINNING PEOPLE!!!! i swear i kept crying every time i heard his speech (even the 175th time!!!!) finally, a man with a brain to rule the world!! we can respect the Americans again.. they proved the world wrong!!


hmmm.. what else?!! well.. I went to a Robin Williams stand up tonight.. i tried not to fall off my seat! the man is Wicked!!!!! my friend was able to get back stage passes.. and we were able to talk to him and take a pic with him too!! he was nice and sweaty!!


That's about it for now.. but I won't bee long this time..

Take care xx

i miss the summer already

Happy Eid

I hope you all have a great Eid.. tomorrow we are having our traditional Eid lunch in a non traditional setting since we are all away from home this Eid. We are going to have lunch at a nice garden restaurant here in London. My little nephew has decided he wants to wear a thobe for the occasion. And he asked his mum, aunts and grandmother all to wear hats (i'm not sure why) but i'm a big fan of hats so it'll be fun :)

What are your plans for Eid?!