2010, coming to us with a BANG!

I like the way this year has started.. for me personally, 2010 is looking up (mashallah) but i'll save the best for last.. firstly, i wouldn't want to forget that a tragedy did take place and the people of Haiti are still suffering.. yet, one of the upsides of globalization is that no one shall be left alone, the whole world has come together yet again to help the people in need. it does make one feel better to see humanitarianism in the headlines everywhere.. If you'd like to do your part, this is a good website for donations (easy to use and does the job)..

One of the things i found amusing was the modern day Robin Hood role the pirates in Somalia have decided to play.. apparently, they have decided to steal from the rich and give to the poor! haha.. ironic! check this out..


now, back to the upside of 2010.. The i-pad! even though it is an oversized i-pod (and also sounds like an ipod from the mouth of a New Yorker, or a Saudi trying to speak in an artificial American accent) and even though it would be uncomfortable to hold up for a long period of time, i am still DYING to get one! maybe even two!! it just makes me want to throw my Kindle in the bin!! but then again, a comment my sister made today did actually make me think. she said that "if apple made toilet paper and called it i-wipe, i'd still go out to buy it and half the population of the world would too" maybe it is just the media frenzy.. hmmm.. who knows?! all i know is that as i said before, I WANT ONE!


what else? OK FINE! I can't think of anything else right now (other than my good news) but it hasn't even been a month! so, whatever! i'll just get to my part..


2010 has been especially special for me because my mother is doing much better health-wise (thank the lord), I have a new nephew (whom i shall meet in a few days inshallah), we are getting 2 new kittens in a week (they are miniature persians that are about as big as a rabbit when they are fully grown), and last but not least, I am engaged!


so, i hope the good news just keeps coming!

how has ur 2010 been looking so far?!

just around the corner

As we approach the new year, i find myself feeling... lighter (not only because i went through very drastic means to loose weight) but even emotionally.. I am ready to leap into the New Year with a smile on my face and hope in my heart that this is it.. 2010 is gonna be MY year!!!


so, has anyone achieved any of their 2009 new year's resolutions.. I really have no idea what i vowed to achieve by 2010, so I can't really comment on my progress..

Nevertheless, as always, i will make a new list for 2010 which i might not stick to but it still gives me a sense of direction..i'm not getting into all that now.. instead.. i'm just gonna blab randomly.. "shocking"


I'm in New York at the moment (and have been since July) I'm missing London terribly, yet surprisingly, not as much as I'm missing Saudi.. can't wait to go back and see the rest of my family back home.. the below zero temperature here isn't helping either.. I need to get a pair of snow boots soon cuz when i'm out it feels like i'm ice-skating!! and i really don't want to break anything!!


One of the highlights of my stay here is this show called FuerzaBruta it's AMAZING.. I've seen it twice already and i'm planning on a third visit.. last time i went i got picked out from the audience to have a card board box-type-of-thing smashed on my head, it was filled with little pieces of paper and glitter.. basically they break the thing on ur head then u start dancing like crazy!! now that was fun!


One thing I have learnt to appreciate since i've been in the states is the mixture of apples and salad!! it's like it's an item on every menu in any restaurant (regardless of the cuisine) along with beetroot (which the Americans call beets) and tuna tartar.. what was i going on about?? oh yeah, apples and salad, it's yummy!!


before i leave u with this totally planned and well thought out post, I have one comment, and a question..

Comment: I hate how facebook changed their privacy settings it's really bugging me!!!!!!!!

Question: What the hell is google wave? I don't get what's so special about it!!!!


That'll be all for now, in the spirit of the great United States I would like to say:
Catch u Later Dudes!!!

buzzzz

The rattling keeps coming back every once in a while..

I hear it in my dreams.. Sometimes its a car starting,

at other times its some sort of bird..

It goes away for a while.. Then comes back..

It begins drilling in my head all over again..

I wish it would stop!

I wish it would stop!

I wish it would JUST STOP!!!!!

I wake up, panting, my heart is racing..

I find myself in my room..

in my bed..

Same surroundings..

Same buzzing sound..

I reach out for the source of the sound..

I pick up my vibrating phone..

i take a deep breath

And hope, that today it will be different,

Today.. there will be good news..

a friend in need...

When it comes to keeping in touch.. I'm not exactly what u would call a PRO!

I rarely pick up the phone when someone is calling unless its my parents or someone I'm meeting in a bit.. I don't do it on purpose, but I can always think of an excuse to make this a bad time to talk on the phone.. I would much rather txt, its seems more private to me..

The people closest to me know that its not personal at all.. They know its just the way I am.. So they always call again.. And I love them for it..

The thing is.. My family and I have been passing through a very difficult time as of recently.. I was so surprised by the amount of people who called, sent txt msgs, e-mailed, facebook messaged and even went as far as traveling to come be with me and my family in our time of need..

It has made me realise that regardless of how independent u are, and how much u think ur fine on ur own.. Its times like these that u need people around u.. It gives u strength.. A belief that things WILL get better..

I wish I could show my gratitude to everyone who has contacted me to make sure we were ok.. I did thank everyone, but I just feel like I should do more.. What exactly?! I'm not quite sure..

I do know, however, that I will do my best to be there for the people who need me and even the ones who don't know they do yet..

Moral of the story: next time u think ur visit, phone call, txt msg or any other form of contact won't make a difference.. Think again

TTYL everyone (I've decided to use these abbreviations that I'm sure lower ur IQ somehow cuz I'm trying to be cool)

as much as i can say,, for now

Sometimes it’s dark.. and no matter how hard she tries, she fails sometimes..

That doesn’t mean she won’t try again tomorrow morning..

Sometimes it’s cold.. and no matter how hard she tries, she fails sometimes..

And yet again, you can count on her trying tomorrow morning..

When she does succeed..

Smiles are drawn, joy is born,

It’s safe again..

What helps me get through the darkness and the cold, is that I believe in the sun..

I believe she will try and succeed..

In my world, you are the sun mama..

You will get through this..

You will shine again..

I know it..

And I love you more than words can say..

Let me be

Un-cuff my hands, if u please..
I create my own restraints..

Throw down that fence, if u may..
I decide my own boundaries..

I am human, am I not? I have choices, do I not?

Just let me be.. u will see.. I am able.. I am


Put down that brush, if u please..
I choose my own colours..

Put down ur voice, if u may..
I can still hear my own thoughts..

I have a brain, do I not?
I have my morals, do I not?

Just let me be.. u will see.. there’s not much u can u change in me..



I have spoken.. I have chosen.. let me out of this cage..

I shall be who I want to be..

I shall do what I want to do..

I shall say what I want to say..

One day....

evolution of thought

(don't get too excited, the title might suggest a more in depth post, but as always, this is just a bunch of BLAH BLAH BLAH)

you know how people go through phases in their lives?

well... i was thinking about this and i'm not sure if they really are phases.. or just variations of the same sort of thing?

maybe they're even a build up on those things!


am i making any sense?


here...

lets use an example.. say when i was a little girl i was into the colour pink (which is 100% untrue since i'm a blue type of girl) but let's just say i was.. then when i was a teenager i started liking fuschia.. and eventually, as i got older red bacame my favourit colour..

so basically, i have evolved over the years.. but in the end, those colours were just variations on the first colour i was into..


apply that to life.. do our interests, likes, dislikes, way of life, mentality etc etc actually change as we get older?

or are we just attracted to the same kind of thing in a different shade?!