Random

-I just finished my exams!!! i'm relieved.. yet i can't help but feel that i just studied too hard for nothing!! i didn't do so great on 3 of them!! or maybe i just didn't study in the way ur supposed to.. whatever way that is.. on one of them,, i wasn't sure if the answer i was writing was the answer to question 1 or 3!! i usually know more or less how i did on the exam when i'm done.. this time,, i have noo idea.. i guess i'll have to wait till July and c


-on another note, i just got my first ever pay-check.. since this is my first ever real job!! it's a good feeling!! the thing is,, i'm not quite sure what to do with the money.. i don't just want to go shopping.. or spend it on something stupid.. i kind of want to frame the check!! how stupid does that sound?!!


-i wanted to thank everyone for their supportive comments on my last post.. and give u a bit of an update on my progress.. i have a counter to show how long it's been since i quit.. but it's not that accurate because i cheated!! i had three cigarettes over the past 12 days.. not bad compared to what i used to smoke.. but i joined the NHS "together" programme which is this support for people who want to quit smoking thingi.. and they told me that i should give myself some time to process the thought of quitting and set a date when i REALLLY won't ever have a ciggi again.. so i did.. i chose the last day of exams which was yesterday.. maybe i should change the counter on my page.. they r really helpful and they send u all these supportive text messages and e-mails and stuff.. it's cool..


-my brother and sister are all back in Saudi, i haven't been alone in the house for over a year.. well i'm not exactly alone, i have my cats :) (the most beautiful creatures in the world).. it was strange in the beginning because i kept hearing noises and doors being opened and i was getting all paranoid.. now i'm just reeeaaallly enjoying the peace.. i forgot how much i like living alone!!


-i just realised that my family are probably reading this.. so this is just a clarification.. that doesn't mean i don't miss u guys!!! i'll probably get bored of the quiet in a few days.. haha


i'm off to do... ummm.. something.... i'm not sure what yet.. but something that is not study related (FINALLLLY)

ciao

an opinion anyone?!..

i was reading this post (To you, women of arabia..) by trevelyana on (http://trevelyana.wordpress.com/) and it got me thinking.. although what i have to say has'nt much to do with what she was saying.. i realised that the problem lies mostly within our society.. if the majority do this, then u must do the same..


since i was a little girl at school. i have never been asked for my opinion, if you take a look at the Saudi educational system, it is mostly based on memorising texts, and reciting what you have learned (word for word) at an exam. ur opinion is not of any interest to your markers. when i went abroad to study, i found that analytical skills were of the essence. in order to pass an exam, you must show understanding of the topic, and have AN OPINION, rather than reciting the author's opinion from the book you used to study.

Thankfully, my thoughts were not completely neglected growing up. as my opinion would be taken into consideration in the house were i grew up.

However, on the larger scale, as a society i am sorry to say that the majority of people need guidance before taking any steps. more distressing, people need to be guided on how to think. examples of this may be seen socially; what is socially accepted and what is not, does not necessarily make sense, but it is what u have been taught to think. even when it comes to religion, people will not take any actions (even minor ones) until they get the approval of a scholar (despite how dodgy his/her background may be)

as an Arab, u also learn to blame ur problems on other people or factors,, so today,, i have decided to blame the educational system in Saudi..

p.s. on the educational note, froggy ur right, exam time is the best time to blog!!!

p.p.s. sorry i don't know how to link the post

speaking up for Lebanon

a strong speech by Sahar ALKhatib




very true.....

Numbers.....

The Cyclone that hit Myanmar today has killed over 22.000 people

(update: death toll has risen to 100.000)

There are THOUSANDS still missing

The death toll is rising.. the numbers are rising

It's strange how human beings with their own lives, family, friends, neighbors, colleagues, work places, hobbies, stories, pictures, houses, pets etc etc.. become NUMBERS..

May God be with them..

To him at least, they will not be just NUMBERS..

i would like to know

-i would like to know where in my brain did i hide the books i have read in my life?! i remember the times i was reading them,, but i don't remember what they were about or even what they were called!!!


-i would like to know if moments that embarrassed me in the past were to happen all over again now, would i still be embarrassed?!!


-i would like to know if i have ever seen the lady sitting next to me on the bus anywhere before and just don't remember because i just don't care???


-i would like to know what it would be like to live in Japan..


-i would like to know how some people can just leave without saying good-bye?


-i would like to know why i am so scared of spiders when others think they r tiny harmless creatures??


-i would like to know why is it that when i'm angry at someone i can never remember why i was angry in the first place and i end up apologizing for something i don't know!!!


-i would like to know why i don't write poetry as much as i used to!!


-i would like to know how it would feel to know everything!!!


-i would really like to know what the hell i am going on about?!!!!!